Boyyyy Troubleee!

OH MAN do I have a lot going on in my mind right now.. so first of all, the kid I'm going to homecoming with, Q, (one of my pretty good friends) just dumped his girlfriend... I think because he likes me.. I definitely do not like him back that way though..... this is about to get real awkward..

okay, but the real thing is my friend C. Ever since he transferred to my school last year I've had THE* biggest crush on him. BUT he wont date me because 1. he doesn't like that I don't want to have sex. & 2. he likes another girl on the cheer squad ( who has a boyfriend and has been turning him down for the longest time). But he knows that I liked/like him. I'm just so conflicted though... because he flirts with EVERYONE, but he has a big heart and gets his feelings hurt a lot.. I just don't know.. anyone else been in this situation?

Game Day!

Well, it's Friday! Which means it's game day! Hopefully we'll pull off a win tonight. One of our best players tore his ACL last week, and another of our best players has gotten too many concussions to play. School was a lot better today. I think I did good on my test! Plus my friend C was back at school today! I missed him! He almost always knows how to make me happy. I would totally date him, but he likes another one of the cheerleaders... plus he likes to flirt with EVERY girl he sees basically. Yeah' he's one of those.. Well, I'm off to get on the bus to go to the game! Everyone have a fun and safe night! :)

Well, today was terrible. Shocker there... Failed my chemistry vocab test, retaking it tomorrow to just fail it again. Flipped out on D in creative writing because he was instigating. Had a terrible practice, hurt a girl. Got to my grandmas to find out that my family went out to eat without me. 

I have so much going on. I am ridiculously stressed out. This guy that likes me tried to help and I completely flipped out on him, so now I feel guilty about that.. I feel like all of my friends have abandoned me.. Especially my best friend, J. She's been with her boyfriend for a year now. I don't get along with him, and today I realized that it was because it makes me so upset that she ignores me for him. Every time I want to do something with her she always has an excuse, usually that shes going to be with him.. Then in class, they're always ALL over each other. She hardly even talks to me when he's around.. She's kept a lot of secrets from me... but that's for another day. I have other friends, but not good enough of friends that I would want to spend my time on the weekends with.. They wouldn't want to spend their time with me either because they have their own best friends to hang out with. I thought one of the girls on the cheerleading squad was going to be a really good friend of mine, turns out she likes to choose everyone else over me too. Not to mention it really upsets me how she treats her boyfriend. He doesn't deserve it & she's just not mature enough to be in a serious relationship. 

Oh, and then there's that. I am sick of being single. There's no one worth dating (by my standards) at my school that isn't already in a relationship. 99% of the boys at my school are rednecks, and I'm not really in to that... Unfortunately, being from such a small town, I don't have any way to really meet kids from other schools. I've had one boyfriend, we used to do something every weekend. I don't miss him, but I miss the things we did. I miss feeling wanted. I miss knowing that someone wants to spend their time with me outside of school. I miss doing things with people on the weekend. I miss being able to have fun.... 

I really don't know what to do..

About Myself & My Goal of This Blog

Hello! First off I just want to thank you for reading my blog. I am very new to this so any thoughts/suggestions would be greatly appreciated! I am going to keep this blog as anonymous as possible. Others names will be represented by their first initial. 



I'm 16 years old & live in a very rural area. No cell service. Small school. Lot's of farms. I am a twitter addict, but lately a lot of people at my school have been turned in for tweeting, so in this blog I will be discussing the things that I would normally tweet about my day. So basically all of the problems I have on a daily basis. I hope that others are able to relate to the things I post & feedback would be great! I'm going to try to post as often as possible, hopefully daily, but due to a rough course schedule & lots of extracurriculars this may be hard. 

If anyone wants to know anything about me I would be glad to share just as long as it doesn't put me or my identity in danger! :)